NATURAL + TEXTURAL : really feeling the things that mean a lot to me + letting go
Dear Surrendering Self,
I find you in those moments when the next step doesn't matter because there is no seperation between me and the moment.
We have had to let go many times, but surrender is an even deeper cleanse and release.
I know I was introduced to you during childbirth. That was something that had to be given up to another level.
Surrendering self you believe in divine timing. You are so good at FLOW, you don't push or pull, you listen to the subtle guidance and TRUST.
Surrendering Self, you know we do not have to worry. You know we gonna be alright. You glide.
You are the road to true freedom. You are not easy to come by especially when faced with years of conditioning to keep it all under control, especially when things appear to be falling apart. Surrendering self you are brave you are strength. You don't care what others may say. You prepare us for what we don't even realise is possible.
Thank you surrendering self for letting go of the limits, the blocks. Thank you for carrying me through emotions to the otherside even when I want to rush ahead. Hurdling all the hard emotions. Surrender you say forget about pulling it together... let's break open and find new space to light up.
Surrendering self lets creativity do its thang. You are so true to the heart of things. A good reminder you are that we don't have to do this all alone.
We just read The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks (as recommended by Dad) and surrendering self you picked up on this :
It is about the miracle cancer cells of Henrietta that have lived on long after her soul transitioned. There are questions about medical ethics, how the medical/science field has treated african american patients. It is about family and completing stories. it is about healing emotional wounds. But these are the pages that spoke to me the most.
Immortality: soul cleansing
'Do something to relax yourself... 'I can't help it... I worry all the time.'...'sometimes we care about stuff too much. We worry when there's nothing to worry about'... 'and we bring our own body down by doing it.'
Thank lord....but please HELP ME, because I know I can't handle this burden myself...Lord, take that BURDEN... I can't carry it no more, Lord. You wanted me to give it to you and I just didn't want to, but you can have it now Lord. You can HAVE IT! Hallelujah, amen"
'Somethings you got to release' ... 'Bible says He can carry all that burden'
I'll leave it there for now
Much Love + be wonderful